Suicide is a feeling of hopelessness; a feeling that nothing is going to get better. Feeling like the rut you’re in will last the rest of your life. Despite your best efforts, the walls of the canyon you’re mired in, stretch upwards for miles.
Webster classifies rut as a noun: a habit or pattern of behavior that has become dull and unproductive but is hard to change. It leaves little to wonder why alcoholics stay alcoholics, and drug addicts stay drug addicts.
People preach Christianity as if the moment they repent or give their lives to the Lord, they will stop facing temptation. As I heard one preacher say, “get saved ’cause then you won’t. I got saved and kept on doing.”
We teach morality without love; anger without mercy. We teach get saved, don’t sin, and conveniently forget the words of Jesus Christ when he said, “I have told you these things that you may find peace in me. For in this world, you will have trouble. But take heart, I have overcome the world.”
Sadly, too many of us lose heart long before we finish the race.