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Hopefully, I get to go home sometime next week. It’s been a long time coming and I’m ready for it. I’d be lying though if I said I don’t have my worries. I’ve slipped up on porn here lately, wrote a couple of sex stories. Perhaps that was the catalyst for my anxiety? Whenever IContinue reading “Home”

What do I know?

What do I know? Not a damn thing! Well, that’s not entirely accurate. I know that the earth is round, Facebook sucks and it makes me feel like a fucking zombie and I wish it would die already. I know I’m tired of living here at my sister’s house and having nothing to do. I’mContinue reading “What do I know?”

About Face

I fell back into old habits of viewing and downloading porn. I don’t know what made me think I can control it; one video becomes another, becomes another, becomes another. If I were addicted to a harsh drug like cocaine or heroin, I’d be dead by now. Do you ever look at your life andContinue reading “About Face”

Off the Wagon

I succumbed to temptation and viewed porn this morning. Never before have I experienced withdrawals this horrendous; this constant. There are no words of consolation; no comfort. I failed. And I feel like a disappointment. Like a ravenous lion, pornography stalks me from the shadows. It watches me limp to safety, holding out my handContinue reading “Off the Wagon”

Porn Withdrawal Syndrome

The years I’ve spent being a heavy user of porn have taken their toll. The last few days-maybe even longer-have not been fun. I guess what I am going through is to be expected: irritability, anxiety, lethargy, stress, difficulty sleeping. All of these are signs of addiction withdrawal. I don’t think that I have everContinue reading “Porn Withdrawal Syndrome”