I spent the late afternoon up until a few minutes ago (1:30 a.m.) playing Madden 20. It makes me feel bad. I don’t know why. Perhaps I feel that video games pull me away from socializing with my family. Maybe I have a guilty conscience? As I write this, my heart is skipping beats 4-timesContinue reading “Today”

What do I know?

What do I know? Not a damn thing! Well, that’s not entirely accurate. I know that the earth is round, Facebook sucks and it makes me feel like a fucking zombie and I wish it would die already. I know I’m tired of living here at my sister’s house and having nothing to do. I’mContinue reading “What do I know?”

Crying Don’t Even Come Close

If I could sum up the way that I’ve been feeling here lately, it is this: crying don’t even come close. Do you ever have those days where you don’t feel like doing anything? Nothing interests you. What was once pleasurable now is not? What used to get your motor running, now doesn’t even turnContinue reading “Crying Don’t Even Come Close”

Dog Down

I feel so down and so depressed. I guess I have a good reason to be. It’s hard to hold a smile, or even fake one. My family can tell. They hug me and tell me they love me. When I was in jail, I repented of my sin of pornography. It’s pretty sad thatContinue reading “Dog Down”


How do I feel right now? I feel tired, worn out, numb, empty, unmotivated, uninspired, hopeless. You ever feel this way? I’m sure a lot of people get this way from time to time. But for me, it’s an every day occurrence. You know, I really don’t hope for anything in the future. Hope, asContinue reading “Lethargic”


Do you ever wake up in the morning feeling like a bad person? Feeling like a failure? Feeling like no matter what you do, there is always going to be someone to attack everything you say and do? Do you ever feel like you have given everything your best but your best is not enough?Continue reading “Worthless”

Wrong and Stupid

I’ve been really down on myself here lately. And for good reason, I suppose. I’m just a stupid person. I make the same mistakes over and over again, expecting a different result…and then I feel like this when it doesn’t. Like shit. I know what you’re gonna say. “Stop putting yourself down!” Well, too late.Continue reading “Wrong and Stupid”

When I’m Gone

When you get the newsThat shatters your perfect lifeAnd breaks your worldInto a million piecesWhen you see me in my casketSkin cold and feeling like clayWhen your shadow stretchesAcross my graveAnd I leave youWith the same silenceYou’ve treated me withWhen your days are dark and gloomyAnd the only question you haveIs “why”When I’m goneMaybe thenContinue reading “When I’m Gone”

Andrew Luck’s Retirement Leaves A Foul Taste in My Mouth

I have to write about this or else I’m gonna go ape shit crazy! Now, bear in mind that I am not a sports writer. I’m just writer. Luck’s decision to step away from football leaves a foul taste in my mouth, and not because I think he should keep playing through the unhappiness andContinue reading “Andrew Luck’s Retirement Leaves A Foul Taste in My Mouth”